What shuld i do?

Just like any other day, I'm counting for it to pass, waiting for time to fly. 24hrs a day, I spend 15hrs locked in my miserable room, doing nothing at all but online, talking to my bb, jie and frens. I wana go back Msia. I dunno how long i can last here. Everyday is so miserable. I played Maple to release stress, to forget about my miserable life. I dunno if i can really study anymore. I've totally lost the mood n the way my parents treat me. Fuck It! They wont understand me! I was so down n so fucked up wif this problem so i talk to my jie. I wont wana call back my home. Cos i know if i call back i will be talking to a WALL. My mom wont understand how i felt rite now. To be honest i dun miss HOME at ALL. The reason i called back is becos my jie told me tat i shuld talk to my parents n so i did. My mom answered and ask me wats wrong, so i tell her, Mummy its really been hard for me. Everyday I'm jz passing my time. I don wana study engineering cos i know i have no interest in it. And physics, my fren told me its hard. So I decided that if i dun hav d interest, y shuld i waste my time on that. Although u n dad know tat if i put effort i can study, but, I have no interest in engineering and i don wana waste ur money n my time on it. Rite now i m so fucking lost. I dont even know wat to study anymore! I wana be a pilot n u don let jz becos "my life not suitable for it" so i said ok. I wana go for art stream u dun let again and ask me go for those high class major like doctors, engineers and lawyers. DAD, MUM, I jus wana live a normal life, I only live once n i don wana live a miserable life. I m so so lost right now. I din even do well for my midterm. I called back n all mum ever said was, Ming, I've work so hard here jz study harder. SHE DONT EVEN TRY TO LISTEN TO ME. Everything is just her hard work bla bla bla......She is not even listening to a word i m saying. MUM I M HAVING A HARD TIME HERE DUN U GET IT?????? GEEZ WAT SHULD I DO TO MAKE U UNDERSTAND ME?? Then u continue n tell me Jackson n Mee Soon can do it y cant i?? Well let me tell u..... I M NOT THEM!!!!! !@#!@#!@# u made me so mad everytime i try to tell u about my feelings. That's y i nvr wana tell u n dad anything. Cos u guys dun understand me at all! I'm having a hard time here and i waited for dad's call. I waited for so long n he didnt call so i called back n he said he is not free. Just when i finally wana talk to him about my prob, he said he is not free?? I'm so damn disappointed! I'm having such a hard time n u guys dun even wana listen to a word i say. MUM u r not listening to a word i m saying at all!! U jus know how to push me to a path which i dun like altho there is a bright future. I wana tell u this becos i don wana study engineering anymore! and other than engineering there is nothing good that i wana study here. I'd rather not waste ur $$ n my time studying for something more simple. And to tell u d truth, I dun like the environment here at all. That's y i'm hiding in my room every single day. Jz when i need to talk to u guys, u 2 cant even talk to me properly. u 2 r lucky that i wont do anything stupid! This is not the 1st time i'm telling u all tat i don wana be here n yet u r still forcing me. I'm very lost now! You guys make me feel guilty for coming here n yearning to go back! yet u guys try to put me here for as long as i can! I dun know how long more i can stand! but still i'm being patient. If i had a chance i will board the nex flight to Msia.I'm so lost right now i just wana quit n have a long break. I dont know wad to study anymore! I just know tat i don wana be here! JIE i cant do anything!!!! THEY JUST DUN UNDERSTAND ME! jie only u know how miserable i felt and i duno if i can last 4yrs here. I wana try my best but everynite i hav tis feeling and it really bothers me. I dun even hav da mood to do my homework or study. Every time i finished my homework few hours before class starts. There was once, I didnt wana do my hw at all. Then I stayed up all nite and didnt slp to do my homework and managed to pass up too.