Everyday is just like another tomorrow for me, waiting for the time to pass, waiting for another day every single night. You guys think I don't understand the value of MONEY?? Studying is just not my thing although we all know that i can study if I put effort in it. U all dun nid to remind me every single time. I don't understand why u guys hav to put me here. I know this is what's best for me but studying is just not my thing! I don't deserve to be here at all. I'm not working hard at all. Everyday I'm just counting for it to pass instead of studying. Why was a great amount of money on me? U all won't understand how bad I felt every single night. Oh and U, I dun giv a fuck that u describe me as emo. Say all u want, U, jz like them, wont understand how I feel. And for those who say that I'm rich. Well guess what?! I'm NOT. If I'm rich I will buy myself out of this fucking misery. I can't even convince them to buy a car for me to do a little to aid this misery. The moment I mentioned about getting a car, SHE is always there to show me that FACE!, the very face that I felt bad as a son to see. U know y i don share my probs with U? It's cos i dowana see that face. Everytime i c, nothing good happens. Now u know y i m always not at home? Why I'm stayin in KL or Penang instead of staying at home? Why I never share my problems with U? It's because if I do tell u my probs, I'm wasting my fucking time on it. I already know what will happen. That FACE! the reaction of yours. Its been the same every single day since the day i was born! Always its the negative thing that comes in ur mind. U nvr think abt it, U nvr did considered about it. ITS ALWAYS BEEN TAT SAME FACE! U wont understand me becoz u nvr did take time to understand, u nvr did have d intention to listen to wat i hav to say and even if I do speak up, I'm always wrong! Now that I'm here there is no turning back. I'm de 1 who chose to be here anyways. Well, all that is left for me to do now is to force myself to do something that i dont like and be a miserable son. A no use son who oni knows how to talk back. A son with no manners. A son who won't even miss his home and a son who won't even wana talk to his parents about his problems. Well I'll play my part and folow the path tat u all chose for me. That's wat u all wanted right? Thats wat u guys so call "good" for my future. I dont plan to say all tis out but it seems that i hav no choice. Everytime i talk to u guys nothing good came out. U guys never understand me...not now, NEVER DID...The time when i say i dowana come to US and u said that u wont force me? What's the point of calling Mrs Yeoh to come to the house n talk to me abt US? Oh wait, I forgot, I dont have a choice! right? If u understand me well enough, u wouldn't have done that. Conclusion is still tat u guys wan me to be here even tho i don't. I'm jz doin my part as a son and follow. Since this is wat u guys wanted rite? i hope u r HAPPY.
P.S: I thought parents should encourage their childrem to strive for something they wanted. I guess I was wrong! They only want what's best for u and they never think weather the BEST is wat u wanted.
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